Im feeling really down, need someone to cheer me up

Am really bummed now .

Sitting there with coffee at hand, I am doing nothing. I am not doing anything now . I'm lost.
I don't know what to do .
I can honestly say I do not understand myself.

I do not know what I want.

Is there anyone i can talk to? Why couldn't i say what i feel ? Why i can only keep everything in my heart and letting myself down .

It's so unfair to me.
Is there anyone can borrow me their ears and shoulder ?
I don't know and don't even dare to think about it.
Who can be trusted ? I wonder .

I look at how some people can be so oblivious.
Even I'm going through a rough patch, I wouldn't give up my life for someone else's any other day.

I want to go back to before. when I didn't think this much, when all I
had to worry about is whether I have did the right things . Dejected,
how much we could have.